Today, she’s doing much better but has regular follow-ups to make sure that the cancer is in remission. One day I accompanied her for a follow-up where she had a battery of tests and we learned that the cancer had returned but in her other leg. I thought that the world was collapsing around us, that we would have to redo the same pattern as before. We requested a second opinion and it turned out that there was an error in the test analysis.
Since I was a child I have gained weight easily and it’s difficult to lose it. After an appointment with my doctor where I tried to explain that I keep gaining weight, his verdict was that I must see a specialist. I’m not a fan of doctors, and my sister told me about Mrs. Bernard and her « magical » methods to understand where the weight gain came from.
So I made an appointment to see D.BERNARD. I asked my father to come with me because I didn’t want to go alone. We arrived 15 minutes early and I was very stressed because I was afraid of what was going to happen. I met D. BERNARD, we took stock of the kilos I wanted to lose; she explained her working methods and told me that I could still see a specialist at any time. I felt reassured but not completely. Then, the moment that I dreaded the most arrived; I had to give her my life « history ». I did so and I tried to be as clear as possible and not to confuse my words.
Then the moment came when I had to talk about my sister’s cancer and I couldn’t stop crying because it was still so painful for me.
Dr. Bernard asked me what issue I would like to be free of first. I told her my sister’s cancer, so she proposed that I treat it with emotional regulation. Sceptical, I went along with it. She asked me to describe the moment when I felt the strongest emotions, so I explained that it was when we learned of the cancer’s recurrence; I started crying again and Dr Bernard asked me to close my eyes and describe everything that was happening in my own body. I took the time to explore internally and realized that I was tense, that I had a knot in my stomach and a tight throat. Dr. Bernard then asked me to allow these feelings to develop, which is exactly what I did. Then we started the exercise again and there, miraculously, I no longer felt anything; not even the desire to cry! I felt like I was free of an enormous weight!
When I came out of the meeting, I felt weird, empty. So, I willingly accepted to continue seeing Dr Bernard. My father had waited outside during the appointment, so I told him about my experience of emotional regulation, how I felt this weight leave my body and how I felt funny.